Advent 2014: The Longing under Everything


Today, I loaded and uloaded the dishwasher twice. I took my kids to basketball camp, did a few hours of work for a client, walked the dog. I opened six Christmas cards (things are looking up in the snail mail department), left a bag of caramel corn for the mail carrier, and roasted an eggplant. I put on my apron and made shortbread and toffee. I folded three loads of laundry and put an out-of-office message on my email account, readying for vacation. I went outisde after dinner and took this photo of our roofline, reminding myself that light needs darkness.

And under, through, over, between everything, a knowing that I'm not alone in this world and a longing for more of the Beloved. Kids finally in bed, I picked up Rilke. Let him say it:

In deep nights, I dig for you like treasure.
For all I have seen
that clutters the surface of my world
is poor and paltry substitute
for the beauty of you
that has not happened yet...